Listening To: embers - just jack
Feeling: pretty sweeet

HEY THERE KIDS :D
*sighs* I deserted my blog agains. It was just the whole thing with prelims and the fact that I just couldnt be bothered. Hoping that I'll start getting into it agains when holidays start or something, I'm not going to make any promises because I'm sick of making promises that I dont keep. But seeing as its about 2am and I cant sleep and I've just finished watching Juno for like the thousandth time and for some reason I'm all hyped, I thought why not? :D

Dude I never realised how epic Juno is. I love everything about that movie. LOVES IT :D Craving a hamburger phone. The first time when I watched it I though "oh hey thats cool" but now its just its just... I want one~ D: And I love that Sue Chin chick. Shes adorable! Lawl. Michael Cera is so cute~ x3

So guess what kids?
At the end of this week, WERE ALL PRETTY MUCH GONNA BE IN YEAR 12. LOIKE YEAR TWEEELVE DOODZ.

Oh oh have totally been into the whole redecorating room thing. Its probably Anna's influence. Amyways yeah I've been changing my walls aand moving my crap around and everything. I'll show you guys a picture when I'm done. Right now its just kind of meh.

Wells I have nothing to do and nothing else to say so I'm gonna go. FRIENDS MARATHON YO!

BYE KIEEEDZ :D

Listening To: slow dancing in a burning room - john mayer
Feeling: inspired :)

Guess what kids. This is my 99th post! I'm actually going to hit 100 posts :D
Heh, I bet to most of you it doesn't really seem like much but it does to me. <3

Anyways~
Sorry I didn't blog for a little while even though I said I would in the last post. I just got epicly sick and still kind of am sick as everyone around me probably already knows. But now I will seriously try harder because I was approached the other day while I was on the bus by a seven foot black man and he was just... huge. And he threatened me saying that if I didn't blog then I would like...die. Well the story was a little exaggerated, the seven foot black man was Tina... In my defence, she looked huge from the angle she was sitting in...

So! It was the open day for USYD last saturday.
I wish I brought my camera to take photos. The campus is just huge and its really pretty too. Oh it would be so epic to get into that uni. It was pretty cool though, that morning I had no idea what I wanted to do and was just going to some random lectures that I found interesting and at the end of the day I was so sure in what I wanted and knew exactly what courses to take. University's are so inspirational. I'm just going to go to any random uni for inspiration whenever I'm down and have lost hope in school.
Open day for UNSW is tomorrow too. I hope its as pretty as USYD~ :)

Well I'm going to go and make some study notes because all this thinking about universities and what not are making me want to do some work.
Catch you kids later ;)

Listening To: eleanor rigby - the beatles
Feeling: meh.

I was reading through my last post which is something I dont usually do because it normally takes me atleast an hour to just do one post and by the time I'm finished I just want to post it and go off and do something else. Anyways, I was reading through my last post and I realized how random I sound when I blog. Like, one paragraph will be about something, and then bam I'll be talking about something else, then bam I'll be talking about something else. Its like I'm on five cans of V or something. So yeah, kind of just wanted to get that out... I'm sorry if the randomness annoys you. I usually never read over my posts so I never really realized it was like that until now.

So my aunty just came over from the 'nam and it kind of got me thinking about some stuff and I kind of made a realization(yes, another one) that I'm really different when I'm around my family. I don't know if it's a normal thing but when I'm around my family I tend to become really quiet and just different. It's kind of weird but I'm more comfortable with my friends than I am with my family. Sigh. I envy those easy going social people.

Speaking of friends and realizations and all, I made one about them too. I'm kind of debating with myself about whether or not I should tell you guys though. On one side: It will bring my blog back to that depressed "wah my life sucks" kind of state; but on the other side: it's not like it would be something new, and since when have I ever not said anything on here because it was 'too personal'. Okay here it is in a nutshell: after reading FML's I came across one that said something like someone being the friend that no one really likes and blah blah blah, you can guess the rest.

I didn't go to school today. I didn't go to tutor either. I've totally been not bothered with life lately. My daily routine has just been: sleeping, going to school, coming home and sleeping.Which I think might my messing with my emotions because now it only ever feels like I'm in this fixed depressed kind of mood.

This song sums up how I feel:

Ah, look at all the lonely people
Ah, look at all the lonely people

Eleanor rigby picks up the rice in the church where a wedding has been
Lives in a dream
Waits at the window, wearing the face that she keeps in a jar by the door
Who is it for?

All the lonely people
Where do they all come from ?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong ?

Father mckenzie writing the words of a sermon that no one will hear
No one comes near.
Look at him working. darning his socks in the night when there's nobody there
What does he care?

All the lonely people
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong?

Ah, look at all the lonely people
Ah, look at all the lonely people

Eleanor rigby died in the church and was buried along with her name
Nobody came
Father mckenzie wiping the dirt from his hands as he walks from the grave
No one was saved

All the lonely people
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong?

I was going to put pictures from Anna's birthday but my internet is super slow at the moment. It takes 100 years to just open blogger. Fuck it. I'm going to sleep.

Listening To: take you down - gabe bondoc <3
Feeling: tired but hyped

Hello dears~
It was Anna's birthday party today :D
Twas fun~
I ended up drinking V at like 8 or something and the effect still hasn't worn off, so if I look really retarded tomorrow at school you'll all know why.

So yes, I finally got around to changing my skin and stuff. It took ages to get the skin to what i wanted. Was a total bitch trying to get all the coding right too, but I feel somewhat proud of myself that I managed to do it without any help. :D

I've finally realised how much I've really changed in the past two years today. It was kind of an after party realisation thing.
"Nothing of me is original. I am the combined efforts of everybody I've ever known." - Chuck Palanuik
I absolutely love that quote because it is so right. I used to have it on my blog a while ago and I just decided to put it back on because of my realisation and 'cause its so epic. x)

People I am totally greatful for knowing:
Parents - Obvious reaaaasons brah. Your're not perfect but I love you guys :D
Siblings - You guys take so much crap from me and still deal with it. Im sorry for everything and thank you for being so awesome. I love you guys so much. Don't want you guys to ever change. Except you Bryan, it would be totally epic if you were a girl. XD LAWLZ
Truc - I know you should go under siblings but I'm going to give you your own thing anyways. I'm sorry for being such a bitch before, I was just an angry kid and needed someone to hate. And even though sometimes now it seems as though I hate you or something but I honestly don't; you're my sister, I love you. But its just that I wish you would stop talking down to me like I'm some sort of retard. Anyways, I like your class. :)
Terina - You're like... my best friend brah. I love you for making me feel so much better about myself and for always being there for me. I've known you since like, forevuuuuurz. You're epic, babe. ;)
Julie - Dude, you're such a lesbian. LOL! After all that crap we've been through, we somehow managed to become closer. I love your style, you've influenced my fashion sense so much and don't say you haven't lady cause you have. Heaps. Thanks for everything. You're so considerate and nice... and you're so preeettty~ *smiles* xD
Vivian - STOP BUYING SHOES LADY! LOL! You're a cool chicko. Thanks for always dealing with my shit. And always being there for me, and always careing whenever I went through those retarded quiet moment thingies. Tanks tanks tanks.
Anna - I'm still really sorry for all of that crap I gave you. I honestly don't really know what the hell that was about. I love your randomness. You're a really cool person. And you're a Vo so that just makes you so much cooler. LOL! I love that I can really be myself around you. I like your style. :)
DILF - You're so hot, I wanna have babies with you. ROFLMAO! (only a few people will get that)

So yeah. Kind of just wanted to get that out. Ignore the last one. It's only there "for teh lulz".I know I do this thing quite often but I'm just really greatful for everything and never have the balls to say that kind of stuff to someone properly in person... so I make them come to my blog and read it themselves. LOL

I've officially gone on my swearing strike. I didn't really know what else to call it and thats what came to my head when I was trying to come up with a name for it. I've just come to a point where swearing is just really gross to me. And it is really bad too.
"Profanity is the attempt of a lazy and feeble mind to express itself forcefully." - Anonymous
Yeah thats right baby. I put up another one. Totally loving meaningful quotes right now.

Okay its about 4am at the moment and I'm just going to totally end up dieing tomorrow /today.
Good night/morning dear people~ :)

Listening To: uprising - muse <3
Feeling: alright~

Only the truely awesome people with awesome tastes in music will understand my previous post. x)

I made a whole new post because that song is so awesome it deserves its own post.
Well, that and it just looked so much cooler without some random small text under it.

Apologies for lack of posts~ *bows head*
Its pretty much due to a combination of assignments, pms, family issues, me issues, friend issues, school issues, (enter random word) issues, work issues, body issues, etc. Pretty much just life.

Ugh I dont know what really happened but this thing has been going on for ages and its really starting to annoy me. Its like a stupid typical schoolgirl thing too. I feel like I'm twelve. Theres a boy. And he goes to my school. And I dont even know him. But I think he's pretty rad. <3

God that whole paragraph is gross to look at. I feel weird after typing that but its been bugging me for ages and I just had to get it out. I think I'm going to strike it out. Yeah, I'm going to strike it out. There I striked it out. Phew, I feel better. Ugh I bet people are just going to stop reading my blog. Yeah, All two of them. *looks at tina and vivian* lawlzors

Oh oh most of you probably wont remember or havent really been reading my blog long enough to actually know but a few months ago I posted something about a song I wanted to learn on piano from a movie called Amelie. Well I finally got to watching the it. I loved it, loved it, loved it. Good good goooood movie. I want to buy it but seeing as its French and pretty old its been pretty hard to find. Either that or I'm just not looking hard enough. >.>

Im totally loving this song atm. In the whole 10-30min I've taken to write this blog I've just fallen in love with this song <3
I think I might actually adopt muse as my favourite band. This is a huge moment for me because I've totally been favourite-band-less for about two years.

Okay I've run out of things to say and I'm going to go look for a new blog skin, knowing me I'll probably finished in about 21343216432 hours. Wish me luck! :)